Scott

(a copy of my post on my blog)

13 years ago, at about 6:35pm, Scott Shields (after a touch of drinking) made the decision to blow a stop sign while driving quite fast. He t-boned a car and hurt my youngest sister, almost killed my father, and killed my mom. And my life became hooked in a weird way to this guy that I've never met. We share this day.

To have a moment of positivity on this day, she had missed her dad for 27 years...she had missed her son for 29 years...and she had missed her mom for 7 years...and she doesn't have to miss them anymore. And we have one of the hardest working guardian angels fighting on our behalf.

There. That was my moment.

Left behind were 4 older sisters. Who lost their baby sister. And what a baby sister she was. To say that she could make her sisters smile and laugh is an understatement.

Left behind were 3 sisters-in-law...whom were her sisters. Period.

Left behind were nieces and nephews. And there's no aunt like Aunt Jan.

Left behind were countless friends and neighbors who packed the chapel and cultural hall for her funeral. Because my mom was the person who welcomed everyone to the neighborhood. And she meant it. And my mom was an Avon lady extraordinaire...she didn't do it for the money...she did it for the visiting. And my mom was the bestest crossing guard that ever worked that corner...because she loved those kids and yelled at speeders.

Left behind was my dad. Who has been changed. He has had a headache since that accident. He had injuries that changed how he functioned on a day-to-day basis. He had to retire. He was left to be a single parent when it was his partner who had done the bulk of the parenting up to then.

Left behind was my youngest sister. And although we all lost our mom, she got the shortest end of the stick. She was 11. She was stuck in that car with our parents. She alone has to live with memories of being inches away from her mom...who was dead...and her dad, who she didn't know if he was dead. And being trapped there. And let's face it, at 11, she was still a baby. She has those memories. She had those nightmares. She had the glass in her head that may still be working it's way out. She had the broken bone. She was there and she's the only one with the memories of that horrific time.

Left behind were 9 children total. Who lost the biggest and strongest and best cheerleader that a kiddo could ever want or imagine. I'll not speak for my siblings about being changed, but that moment on the stairs changed me. I fought it for a few years before I finally got it through my thick skull that I was a different person now...accept it. I have a hole in my heart and soul that won't be filled until I see her again. I am a changed person. My relationships with my siblings changed...our mom is gone...that changes our relationship with the world.

Left behind are 34 grandchildren (and one on the way). Most of whom don't know for themselves that amazing cheerleader that they have for a Grandma Taylor. That's just wrong.

Left behind are 11 great-grandchildren (and one on the way). All these little ones don't know her. That's just wrong.

Left behind are in-laws...only 2 of them knew my mom. Only two of them can attest to the mother-in-law that they had here.

Today is my black day. Today is the anniversary of when my life was shoved off it's axis. When we lost that crazy goofy lady who was seriously, one of the most unselfish people that I have ever met.

She left big shoes to fill. She left a great example. She wasn't perfect, but dang it all, she did what she was supposed to do here. She did her best. All the time.

And she left this earth at the young age of 58...her life was us, and given the choice, I know she wouldn't have left us so soon.

But she did.

Because of Scott Shields' stupid stupid decisions.

I hope you're remembering her today Scott.

I hope you are.

One Graduation Down...One to Go...

These are from Jaycey's seminary graduation last week.

She had her "full" name put on her diploma.  :)

For more of the story, you can read the posting on my blog HERE.

Yay! 1 Down ...

Remember last year when my truck broke down? Well, today I wrote the last check to pay for the repairs. Yay! One bill -g-o-n-e-.

restating the obvious

i thought it was time for a reminder...

So, something is bugging me.. and I feel like I need to get it off my chest
Is it very difficult for people to have common decency of what a marriage is?
If you don't want to be married to that person then get a divorce before you get "other" significant people. And be truthful!

Lady Winterhart said...

hahahahahaha. i love you. :D


The Brandons said...

I love you too. I mean come on, Mom raised us better!

Happy Birthday Susan!!! (yesterday)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY!

HOPE IT WAS A GREAT DAY!!!

and the other three days...let us know how they went!

Times are Different ...

Last night we watched "The Lake House". My kids ask me, "Mom - why do they put the red thing up on the mailbox?"

Family Pictures

Okay so my friend and her colleague do their photo shoots on Thursdays and Saturdays
Being that Saturdays won't work for the family pictures while Tamra is in town, everyone look and see if you can decide whether August the 19th would work? It's a Thursday
Let me know so I can give Julee our answer so she can pencil us in

Hi

So check this out. My very first ever blog. :) Now I forgot what I was going to tell ya'll. Oh well. I'll go change this baby's diaper and hopefully remember.

Family Picture

Okay yahoots mark your calendars
So far we're going to go ahead and say that we'll be having a large family photo taken in August
whenever Tamra and her family shows up
And I'm hoping that the kiddos who are going away to college this year won't be going too far so they'll be in it too :-)

question for ya...

The computer wouldn't let me comment for some reason...so...

Tara:  why would they charge you that much right at the front?

And congrats on your schooling...good job!!!

And yeah on Tamra coming!!!

Oh For The Fun Of It All

it's a busy exciting time of year. i'll be done with my externship next tuesday and then a week after that take my test to be licensed and then i get licensed with dopl and then i take a break and clean finally and then tamra flies down for mom's birthday and then jake's birthday at the zoo and then baseball (i have to remember to sign him up for that still) and then aidan starts preschool and then... ??? the lady at my obgyn's office pulled up my old file and thought i was pregnant and tried to charge me $2700. i told her that i DID have room for it on my card but she only charged me the $60 for my visit. she told me that i could get pregnant then with the $2700. i wonder if she'd cover the hospital bill? lol. she apologized a lot.

Happy Birthday Tamra April!!!

How embarrassing...I meant to post this yesterday...My bad...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMRA!!!

LOVE YOU!!!

Countdown Continues!

12 DAYS!!! FROM TODAY...
MY LITTLE GIRL, MY DAUGHTER WILL BE SEALED TO US FOREVER!!!!!!
And those of you who I've invited to be there, Thank you! :-)

How Old Are You?

Dude...you're getting old...  ☺

So, something is bugging me.. and I feel like I need to get it off my chest
Is it very difficult for people to have common decency of what a marriage is?
If you don't want to be married to that person then get a divorce before you get "other" significant people. And be truthful!

Happy Valentine's Day

i probably should've put this up after i see how well frosting cookies with nursery kids goes. i love sappy cards, red see's candy packaging, and little kid valentines. i love lingerie sales, finding a new restaurant, and conversation hearts with ever increasingly crappy things written on them. i love valentines boxes at school, jakob thinking that cupid is a demon, and seeing what new heart earrings jesse got for ladawn.

yay ballet stuff

i just bought tickets for "shen yun". i'm soo happy. i haven't been to a ballet since i was 18. that's very sad. i refused to buy the $99 tickets 'cause that's crazy and i don't want to sit next to people who sit in the best area at these things. they get annoying. so i got the next level down. i've been watching "ballerina" on netflix. apparently the italians started ballet and then taught the french and they brought it to the russians who dominated it for the last 200? years. i think it's funny how the arts come from italy. thanks italians. i'm off to my externship. hopefully aidan doesn't throw up on kim today. :D

guh...

if you have any prayers or good thoughts to spare today...send them my way...please...

now i will open my blog and just let the music play loudly through the house.

who knew

i blog when it's not private and not mine. hmm. aidan put on mascara today. i re-read the link connie sent me to the "love extends beyond convenience" article. i love having dad's car. it's nice to not be stuck in the house or try to find a ride. i can't decide whether to cut my hair short (right above my collar bone) or not. i realized how long it is when i had my coat on at school. ah, school. today was my last day of class and so far (this will change tomorrow) i have a 3.9 gpa. i'm babysitting constantly which is actually good 'cause then the boys aren't so bored with each other. the hair thing. this girl at school told me i should go blond. i think not. i can't believe i'm done with classes. for eight years anyway. i'm not going to have my temple recommend in march. that makes me sad. i'm thinking the beginning of may. rich can take ladawn's boys. we may have to make this an over-nighter. :D rich's bosses are in haiti being body guards for doctors. i wonder how many people they'll kill? i'm back to thinking no on the tattoo. if i get it then i'll want the boys' initials and birthdates and then the amor vincit omnia with the daisy and this is not a good thing. i gave my final speech today and even though the teacher loved it i still got a C because i went way under on my time (last time i went way over) and that was 20% of my grade. but he loved it and i got awesome comments so that made me happy. i'm going to miss people. i need to pay off some bills so that i can get a minivan this year. i just realized that i can do it. if i do it before october when my nasty student loans have to be paid on. i'm going to be taking over kim's life next month. i can't figure out why she's excited to babysit for me. maybe she's bored. ooh ooh! i put a crib together for geanette today! it was fun. i love her. this saturday we're getting bunk beds for the boys (mattress for aidan, more sheets) and a light cover plus bulb. i'm going to paint their room! i love tax season. rich is getting a bike in the spring so he can go riding with jakob and i'm signing him (jake not rich) up for softball this year. aidan is waffling with the whole potty training thing. i'm giving him three months and then handing him over to my bff. i've been reading nothing but books for research. learned a lot about marie curie. marya salomee sklowdowska curie. i'm rambling. yay! have a good night.

whew!

i got my schedule for next month. i'll be training 6 days a week. i told her i prefer saturdays to sundays so i'm good there. let's see if i can't bust my externship out in 6 weeks!

Clarification

Apparently, I need to read comments...so here is the copy and paste:

"lol...made me think about dad with my remote.

and him getting stuck on "Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew".

that was funny.

Posted by Connie Babe at 3:20 PM

5 comments:

Karilyn said...

that really is mean.

He's only 76... Grandpa Lee was at least in his late 80's and had prostate cancer to go through to blame the whole mess on."

Okay.  So I assumed that people read my blog and know the story.  Here is the story:

Dad thinks he knows how to work my remote.  He doesn't.  Every time he insists that he can do it, but he doesn't figure it out...too many buttons...the same problem I have trying to use the dvd player during my Sunday School class...anyway...  This time, we didn't argue with him, just let him do it.  Because he insists he knows how.

So he pushes buttons while muttering.

I was in my room folding laundry, I hear Doug say, "That's Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew, I don't think you want to watch that."

I come out.  And yup...dad has pushed buttons and ended up on that show.  But he continues to say that he knows what he's doing, so we both just stay quiet while he is busy punching buttons and not getting anywhere.

A few minutes later, he finally gets the channel to change.  It changes to some incredibly stupid pre-pre-school show.  At which point dad is frustrated...I pat him on his shoulder and say, "I don't think I like the shows you pick dad..."  and go back to folding laundry in my room.

It was funny. 

Margaret thought so.  Doug thought so.  Brittany and Jaycey thought so.  Even dad thought so.

So what I posted awhile back was not mean.  Dad was there, he appreciated the humor of the situation.

In no way did I infer that dad wanted to watch the show.  And, although I'm not a watcher of that show, I believe it's for people who are addicted to sex...not for people who can't have sex.

And in no way did I infer that dad can't have sex.

His (and grandpa's) sex life is none of my concern.  That's his and Margaret's personal business. 

I do know that he doesn't have prostate cancer...knock on wood...and hopefully, he goes to the doctor often enough now that any physical problems (be it his heart, diabetes, skin, lungs, stomach, etc.) that he has will be caught before they become worse. 

So I stand behind my earlier post.  It was a funny moment.  It wasn't mean in any way.  And dad is welcome to read each and every post that goes up on here. 

So...perhaps another "rule" for this blog should be:  no picking fights. 

Because this was fairly ridiculous.

And even dad said that.  Because remember...he was there...he wasn't offended...I would never do anything to hurt him, especially in a public forum of any sorts.

That's all....I'm over it...I know the kind of person that I am...I don't diss on my parents.  I may tease them, but they tease right back.

Is my Tag Showing?

8 TV shows I watch on occasion:

1. Grey’s Anatomy (almost every week)
2. Private Practice
3. Vampire Diaries (except now they’re on the same time as Grey’s grr…)
4. Brothers & Sisters
5. Extreme Homemaker (Ty Pennington)
6. General Hospital

7. C.S.I
8. Law & Order

8 favorite places to eat and drink:

1. Chuckarama
2. Wendy’s

3. Subway
4. Applebees
5. Red Robin
6. Texas Roadhouse
7. La Cabana
8. My father in law’s Grill

8 things I look forward to (NOT necessarily in this order):

1. Getting Leanna sealed to us
2. being with Thomas
3. playing with my daughter
4. holding Leanna
5. traveling
6. spending time with my friends
7. spending time with family
8. going to the movies (hardly happens)

8 things I love about winter:

1. snow
2. cute sweaters
3. sliding on the streets (with my feet)

4. christmas lights at temple square
5. sledding
6. making snow angels
7. Hot Chocolate
8. Leanna’s reaction to snow

8 things on my wish list:

1. getting the truck paid off
2. giving Leanna siblings
3. going to school
4. going on a real vacation
5. to go to Hawaii
6. to go to Paris
7. to know how to read notes so I can be more musical
8. a few acres in Idaho with a house

8 things I am passionate about:

1. My Husband
2. My Daughter
3. My Family
4. My Friends
5. Scrapbooking
6. Dancing
7. Church
8. Taking Pictures

8 things I have learned from the past:

1. To listen to your heart

2. Never lose faith in Heavenly Father
3. Blessings take time
4. Those blessings are worth the time
5. That Mom can still comfort me when I need her the most
6. Nothing good comes from alcohol
7. You can’t trust everyone
8. Nothing is free

8 things I want/need:

1. sibling(s) for Leanna
2. a date with my husband at least once a month
3. clean dishes when I get home from work
4. a water softener
5. a backyard full of grass
6. a garage
7. dance dance revolution for my x-box 360
8. a vacation

is my tag showing?

8 TV shows I watch on occasion:

1. the office
2. burn notice
3. (as of last night) project runway
4. i get "corner gas" in the mail
5. i have netflix
6. i watch it on the 360
7. the upstairs t.v. belongs to the boys
8. i watch t.v. on the internet

8 favorite places to eat and drink:

1. taste of india
2. mimi's
3. cafe rio
4. china buffet (lucky buffet?)
5. famous dave's
6. royal india
7. marija's
8. oliver's

8 things I look forward to (NOT necessarily in this order):

1. sex
2. getting a minivan
3. getting a job
4. my nursery class
5. role playing (uber geek i know)
6. finishing my temple class
7. helping jake's class on fridays
8. my new airsoft rifle

8 things I love about winter:

1. not having to look at my dead grass
2. cute sweaters
3. waiting for the good snow (someday i'll show jake how to make stuff)
4. christmas lights
5. rich trying to slide with the car
6. kids' fat coats
7. bird tracks on my porch
8. ike doing his crazy figure eights

8 things on my wish list:

1. the title to this house :D
2. food storage for a year
3. a pedicure once a month
4. joe to fly out here and adjust my back and then a massage
5. my victoria's secret wish list
6. someone to organize my stuff
7. paint
8. the drive to play my violin

8 things I am passionate about:

1. rich
2. my boys
3. apparently drugs (inside joke maybe?)
4. amy tan
5. bollywood (oh amir!)
6. my toes
7. cute socks
8. food

8 things I have learned from the past:

1. it's really hard to forgive yourself
2. chemistry lectures are not for me
3. idaho is not a place to live if you don't love ice and wind
4. i don't have to talk to people that i don't care for
5. no more v.s. jeans, the butts rip out
6. get my leaves raked on time
7. bedtime is the most important for kids
8. long baths with a book are awesome

8 things I want/need:

1. that minivan!
2. excedrin
3. a new bed
4. another cat
5. more shoes
6. new pans/tupperware
7. less toys
8. to fix my water heater/new washer

i guess that's 10. oh well, it's my list. :D

the air over there...

as gorgeous as this is:

i have to tell you guys...

in my recent "quickie" trip to utah, i didn't care for the air at all.

not at all.

the temperature?  jaycey and i adored.

but i think it's okay for that inversion to go ahead and leave y'all be now.

that's my two cents.  :D

ladawn's post

(as dictated to tara)
i got a book from the library about vanderbilt. it's called "the first tycoon". it was recommended as a good read on the news. i watched "persuasion" finally. i'm happy about c&b. :D i forgot to pop some popcorn on popcorn day. i need to go. i have to go get bryce from school. we have to go to the library for chess club.

Trekkers

i've made the serious and irreversible decision to get my sons addicted to star trek. i'm starting with the movies in chronological order. i expect to here them yelling "KHAN!" in a couple of weeks.

Blast from the Past...

17 March 1994

Brittany was watching tv. There's a scene with a mother and daughter. The daughter leaves, mom tosses some papers. Britt laughs. I asked her what was funny. She said it was funny cause moms don't make messes.

Tara is 28!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TARA!!!

now i'm going to go have cake.

Dad & TV

lol...made me think about dad with my remote.

and him getting stuck on "Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew".

that was funny.

i might be just a little bit mean

alright i'm breaking this in. my own blog is stale since i don't lead a very interesting life and that's how i like it. dad and margaret are upstairs watching a movie. he didn't want to see "oh brother where art thou" again or "catch me if you can" and he left his movies in the car and i don't like being cold so i said "hey, you like british comedies" and put in "the meaning of life". dad just sat through them singing "every sperm is sacred". i'm down here laughing. i think that's enough quotation marks for now.


tara

WELCOME Y'ALL!!!

Have fun...Play nice...Add often...Enjoy!!!